Went looking through our photo album
Worst thing I could have done
All this time I’ve had composure
Right now seems I have none
One look is all it took, I couldn’t stop
I tried to file a mental objection
Thought I was over him, now I forgot
Overpowered , no way I could reject him
Suddenly felt my eyes overflowing
In tears, as I’m a helpless component
Heart quickly became so exhausted
It was too late, I got lost in the moment
I remembered how handsome you are
How you’d light up my view like a star
I remembered your hands and your touch
Body’s shaking as it reinstalls
All my feelings for you came right back
Stampede by our memories, attacked
I remembered your kisses and hugs
Tried to run from my mind, you’re a trap
I remembered me washing your hair
You’d stay still, so patience, and silent
I remembered how thankful you were
Every time, as I lie here now crying
I remembered your brown and soft arms
How’d you pick me up like it was nothing
You’re so beautiful , need you to know
Every part of you love, is so stunning
I remembered your voice in my ear
How’d you make sure that I knew you missed me
Heart pounding I’m drenching in tears
As I think of your hands on my body
I remembered our passionate sex
How you’d hold me and tell me I’m gorgeous
How’d you say it so gently and calm
Watching me like your favorite performance
I remembered our long conversations
So intelligent, you’re not like the rest
Your dreams, your thoughts, and your wisdom
Never failed to leave me impressed
I remembered our naps, I remembered our showers
How’d you lay naked after, All of you I’d devour
I remembered your face , As I’d crawl between your legs
You know what happened next, I know that, you won’t forget
I remembered that one time we smoked and got high
We don’t do that but we wanted to,
I remembered you laughed, I was drunk off of wine,
I was drunk in love with all of you
I remembered the day I was crying
Over a nursing exam that I failed
You came flying to me with your hugs
All my confidence you would prevail
I remember I said I was over you
I’m discovering now, it’s not true
Can’t believe this right now
How’d I even allow ..
Does your mind play around with you too?
I remember I meant it for real
But look at me now, here I am
In the dark all alone thinking of you
Undeniably missing you again
Still crying I guess, but it’s nothing
I’m always emotional
You ain’t shit, it was nothing but fucking
Running backs not negotiable
Forget everything that I just said
It meant nothing at all, I promise
I have plenty and plenty of options
Won’t fall for you or you’re corruptions
I don’t know why I still hold our pictures
There so evil I need to delete them
They took over my mind, no permission
Makes me feel like I’m needing to see him
Like I wanna run back ,man this shit is so wac
Its all mind games, my heart don’t feel no more
Well at least I’ll enact , all my tears I’ll hold back
I won’t do this to myself, man I swore
I have to stay strong ,He don’t want me no more
And I don’t want him neither
He’ll never be mine , I’ll never be his
I’m good on my own, I don’t need him
Deleting our album for good is a must
My feelings for him are unsteady
Next time though, not now, I know , but I can’t
Just tried and it seems I’m not ready..
I always do prefer to hear you read the poems, adds so much depth! Very beautiful and relatable as always ❤
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Thanks so much Shelly 😍, I will continue them! Hope you and your beautiful daughter are having a good day 🙂
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